loneliness

sitting all alone in her bedroom

peeping out of the window

she looks at the selfish world outside

searching for a ray of hope

a tear drops from the corner of her eye

she was, she is and she will be

she was tired of being invisible

she was tired of no one caring

she was tired of all the gossip

she was tired of all th tears

she was tired of telling people how she feels

she was tired of people forgetting

she was tired of pretending

she was tired of having no true friends

she was of herself crying to sleep

she was tired of knowing that tomorrow is going to be the same

she was tired of going to bed now

she was, she is and she will be

realization or confusion?

its 12 at night, i'm looking at my phone with a lost stare

i wonder if you're waiting me standing there

i have been through a lot of suffering

my life is like a stupid video buffering

i think this realization is just too late

our love is not in my fate

i don't know how i feel

i need some help to deal

is it a realization?

or just a confusion?

i will be proud to tell this world that you are mine

now i realize, your love was so divine

i still regret & try to look alright

the truth is i cry badly each n every night

it never was & never will be

i am the reason for what'z happening to me

i'm loosing my faith & site

i wish for the last time i could hold close n tight

is it a realization?

or just a confusion?

a night of thoughts

is it you? or is it me?

or is it how it is all supposed to be?

i still don't get what went wrong

my broken heart still sings that song

if i had my way i never get over you

i just don't know what to do?

i wonder why i loved you so much

now i feel the need of your touch

why do you always do this to me?

it hurts me like hell, can't you see?

it's another console lie

i am tired baby, i don't wanna give it a try

no more pain, no more tear

i want it to be crystal clear

i feel so lonely & helpless here

now i let myself be sincere

i wish you stayed

the surprise attack dismayed

i want to be as stiff

i am still in deep disbelief

vision is blurry, senses weakened

you're physically here, but mentally gone

it's 3 am & i have school

so i fake a smile & pretend to yawn

now its too late at night

i hope tomorrow everything will be allright

lost dreams.....

i am trying to figure out my life

it is hurting like sharp edge of a knife

ask yourself, don't you want to give it a try?

your dreams are eager to break out and fly

let the bright colours of your soul come out

don't let them be inside and shout

for the shake of others, don't loose yourself

i know you feel as helpless as an elf

don't you want to open up and share?

stop pretending that you don't care

i know the time is passing by

but still i am afraid and too shy

sitting by the side of a window

i am trying to find my lost shadow

inside and out the world is black

confidence and courage is what i lack

my dreams were my dear

they couldn't come out because of my fear

i don't know what to do?

my soul is shouting "coward you!!!!"

but i am still trying to figure out my life

& hoping to get rid of this sharp knife