the sparrow

he left her broken and the shattered nest

but she still held on to love they once possessed

in this stormy dark night, she lies on the ground with her broken wings

listening silently to the song of rain, from its magical invisible strings

the nest made with love, joining twigs and leaves

she lived in a fairy tale, once he mad her believe

she knew he was gone, she lost her strength to get up

blinded by an illusion so long, the reality left her disturbed

now that she was on her own, she needed to be strong

yet she was clueless, she couldn't figure out what went wrong

there was a sunny morning afterwards, the storm at last did end
shivering she stood up on her weak legs ready to pretend

Illusion

I know he'll never be mine

then why do I shed tears?

Im unable to pretend that Im fine

suppressing all my childish fears

love never comes with a warning

and i can't keep it inside anymore

my innocent heart was crushed one fine morning

I could clearly see my feelings running out the door

may be im not even close to the perfect girl

not at all deserving to be wrapped in your arm

but my hopes were high and tall

your sight shivers me, even when its warm

he masters the art of attraction

im aimlessly running behind a mirage

a bond that never existed yet nurtured by affection

but its endless, it simply grows with my drowning age

Last winter

My mind full of wistfulness, the benumbing winter breeze

in absence of your warmth, every moment a lil more I freeze

recollecting the memories of last winter, being woken up by pristine touch of morning dew

you arms wrapped around me, I lived a lifetime, my fairytale dream with you

The night grew longer, I'm feeling cold but you were still not back

the fear of loosing was eating me up, the night was growing uncanny and black

the clock kept ticking, your favourite eyes were now brimming with tears

Never knew this was the time, It was reality now, my biggest fear

yes, you came back but I could not feel you breathe, your lost heart beat

your face has turned , lips were cracked, your hands icy cold on our very last meet

now I sit by your grave in the morning and at night you protect me and watch me sleep

with every passing day, Im growing fonder of you and falling in love a bit more deep.

the known caveat

as I've learnt, the best medicine is time

Even though the tunes of my life never seem to rhyme

from knowing a person to revealing to his true self

Im startled to see how they're in a need of great help

you can wear a mask of lie but can you hide your soul?

one day you're bound to face the truth as the time rolls

the undone talks,the endless fights and the blood shed tears

loosing or gaining loved ones in now not included in my fears

now that Im numb, Im atlast satisfied with me

for i just see lies and illusions, no matter how far I see

Life is a nasty game and Im just another player

Nobody will be there to catch me when I fall, even if they say they care

My emotions and heart is frozen but still I somehow manage to cry

lying and betraying, we go a little closer to the day we'll die.

I smile

My worst nightmare has turned into harsh reality

I lost the one whom I loved so dearly

breaking the shield of darkness, going towards the light

I kept thinking of way to sort out the last undone fight

to hide the wounds you gave me all this while

I'll pretend to be perfectly fine & I smile

the roses are dried up but still has its sweet essence

you gave the me unbearable pain but along with the solace

all those fights, the excuse to deepen our bond

I wish to turn around the time with some magic wand

to hide the wounds you gave me all this while

I'll pretend to be perfectly fine & I smile

the fun classes for which I used to wait all night

now I choke every time I see you, like its my own internal fight

my rainbow coloured life is now black and white

and Im trying to get over the memories with all my might

to hide the wounds you gave me all this while

I'll pretend to be perfectly fine & I smile

I wish love would have come with warning

who knew my world will turn upside down one fine morning?

I won't blame you, I know you didn't meant to cheat

but baby I promise I won't be the same if we ever meet

to hide the wounds you gave me all this while

I'll pretend to be perfectly fine & I smile

Don't worry, I'll wait till you recognize your mistake

because I'll be there for you, you can never be late

so sorry for bringing tears to those beautiful brown eyes

remember there is a ending to every goodbye

to hide the wounds you gave me all this while

I'll pretend to be perfectly fine & I smile

reflection

she was lost in her own world, so secret and deep

she was trying to find her lost self, when the world was fast asleep

she was born wrapped in the delicate petals of pink rose

she had a trillion reasons to suffer but what was hurting her the most?

the mirror was the only evidence which saw her growing from an infant to a young lady

life started teaching her such harsh lessons when she wasn't even ready

there was a time, everything was so innocent and divine

but now everybody grew up, was anybody bothered whether she was alive?

she was always humble & kind, cared selflessly for one and all

but she she got hurt over and again, through spring and fall

her soul was lost in this cruelty, she wanted to be like before

did she already learn all her lessons?or god has planned some more?

she was so badly trapped in the ornamentation of lies

stuck and lose in the maze of when,where,what and why

her beautiful eyes were too tired, she fell asleep as it started to rain

it was useless to think over th past anyways, that would just and on to her pain

Tomorrow will be worse or may be the same.

My funeral

I could see my corpse lying in the coffin

I noticed everyone silently talking

my so called loved ones were still in a haze

everyone seemed to be lost inside the emotion's maze

In one hand there was the blade & poison in the other

I chose this way as there was no way to go further

before saying the last goodbye, god gave me an amazing power

but I had no clue it has thunders to shower

I could read minds! all the way around

I could clearly hear the most negligible sounds

there stood my man, the only one I ever loved

being clueless how his thoughts were twisted & turned

I expected him to wonder the reason behind my demise

but sadly he was way too heartless and wise

this was the first shock to my lost soul

there were more waiting to pierce more holes

to console myself, I turned towards her

surprisingly her thoughts were pretty much blurred

she was not bothered that I wasn't there anymore

she was rather happy that for eternity I was pushed out of the door

I trusted her through all these years of my life

unknown of the fact that she was stabbing the betrayal's knife

my last hope, I turned towards the guy whom I assumed knew me the best

priceless times spent with him, felt like I stood up high on a crest

we always fought, almost everyday

I blindly believed he was here to stay

oh! how it shattered me when I realized it was the biggest lie

love & friendship were just two words, I got to know after I died

now it was my time to leave, with no reason to stop

I could feel myself going up above, right on the top

there stood a girl with a brook of tears in her brown eyes

I wanted to judge her the last, there was no risk in making another compromise

I was stunned when I got the courage to peep into he mind

she was true! she cared and her heart seemed melted and kind

all of a sudden it started to thunder and rain

it seemed as if even the heaven cried for my unbearable pain

as the last last tribute she greeted my lifeless body with a black rose

I could feel the affection wave between us, an invisible force

just when I began to know nothing but the truth

god didn't show me any kindness, any ruth

I had to go leaving the ones who cared and I never knew

Yes, i was loved & cared for but only by a unknown few

P.S. this is specially dedicated to my newly found angel Shayani :]

other than that the people mentioned in the lines above played very important roles in my life.

though I don't have them with me anymore, though I'm like this because of them.

I love and care you though I know I won't get anything in return. :] x