Even when

I may be alive but totally numb

I still have a soul, crushed into crumbs

I try to cover my flaws & stop my tears

but on the inside it just increases my fears

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

so what's the secret I don't know about?

your presence is what I can't live without

how you used to adore everything I do

I still love you, do you love me too?

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

how sincerely you promised to never let me down

your favourite smile has turned into a permanent frown

are you real or are you reel?

hold my hand tightly, make me feel

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

how we made each other so strong

then how can you let everything go wrong?

don't make me believe that it won't be the same

you mean the world to me, its not a game

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

you always wanted to see me safe and sound

then how come you didn't notice my wound?

as each second passes by, you go a little more away

I'm a million steps away from myself these days

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

Can't we start over again & make it like before?

I can't breath, my heart isn't beating anymore

I can't recognize who I am today

I have moved so far from yesterday

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

don't waste time, don't wait till I repose

I forgot thorns comes along with rose

you gifted me with agony, tears and disregard

& life gave me ultimate end as reward

even when I know you won't come

even when I know you're forever gone

Eyes don't lie

Its hard for me to believe what I see

to see walk by so carelessly

I may live, I may die

but our faded love, you can never justify

My lips may lie but my eyes can't

Just like yesterday as it seems

we were in love & unreal were my dreams

so tell me, for how long can you pretend?

give me a reason to believe that its the end

My lips may lie but my eyes can't

do you know how alone I'm after you betrayed?

the only one I can rely on is my dear blade

how can I believe that you're gone?

they don't know you, I know they are all wrong

My lips may lie but my eyes can't

I'll close my eyes & wait until you disappear

but when I opened my eyes you were still here

though its hard to accept but its the bitter truth

suddenly the atmosphere became uncouth

My lips may lie but my eyes can't

burying all the love and affection

now all that's left is unbearable affliction

give me a way to fill my desolation

was it really love or just an infatuation?

My lips may lie but my eyes can't

I miss you

the right time never arrives, you've to make it right

so stop it now, all the lies, excuses and fights

its merely useless of sticking together

even you know, it won't be like before ever

I miss you.

where's my guy who was so understanding?

where's my guy so loving and caring?

did he get lost or you hid him somewhere?

i thought what I had was precious and rare.

I miss you.

you promised to be with me & help me to get through

my feelings were pure, were yours too?

then why did you leave me when I needed you the most?

you left crying and screaming in the middle of the road

I miss you.

I just want you to know that you're the one

when I said, I mean it, its you or none

i know we won't ever get back our old essence

your lies hurt me more than your absence

I miss you.

as you said, I always needed to be strong

but I never expected you to point out my wrongs

everything you did me, was it fake?

the tears I've cried for you would have filled a lake

I miss you.

the clothes you left, they smell just like you

my mind say I don't miss you but my heart screams I do

now I'm stuck between truth and lie

I tried hard even heaven won't deny

I miss you.

why can't you be the guy again I loved so dearly?

now I can see the truth, oh! so clearly

I wish to erase your memories and move on

but I can't let it go, it's way too strong

I miss you.

It's you who will decide whether I'll go or stay

either get back to your old self or I'm going away

think about it, relax and take a seat

nothing will be left then, if we ever meet

I miss you.

not anymore

we both know thats its over

don't waste your time, just move forward

I know forgetting me will be painful

otherwise we will stick to something not at all meaningful

Is there any point of our constant fighting?

you never answer my letters that I keep writing

the overdose of my love & care has spoiled you

my endless tears makes no sense, its nothing new to you

times are harsh & you changed so drastically

so now I just want to let it be

I don't want any more wounds, any more tears

talk out tonight, I want it to be crystal clear

this time I won't wait for you to decide

I don't live to please you, I know what's right

you don't need to give any explanations, no more sorry

its my turn now, you've always been in hurry

tonight take your fake love with you & set me free

go away, leave me alone, let me be me

I am not mistaken not missunderstood

stay away, go there where you should

I won't complain anymore that I'm alone

you don't to call me, I won't pick up the phone

finish it all, let me go tonight

as soon as you leave I'll be alright

never again will we be together

my dear boy, there is nothing called forever

too late

you look at my face, so bloodless and pale

I'm totally numb, my heart rotten and stale

my faith was intact, I never thought I would fail

but at the end, I just have reason to moan and wail

its been a decade since your love didn't rain

I thought your words were true, so divine & serene

I'm empty and my soul has already died

but you never bothered, for you how many monsoons I've cried

you can't break a girl who is already broken

you can't destroy my world as its already shaken

I'm disclosing all the secrets fold by fold

I would have loved you all life, if you hadn't left me in the cold

for time may heal wounds but scars always remain

you must loose something in order to gain

don't you think it's too late for you to come around?

I've gone a long, I'm too far to be found

if you have to leave, you should just leave

I'm already gone, there's nothing I can give

you're everything I wanted and will ever want

I thought we were meant & supposed to be lost

together forever

from the very first I saw you, deep inside I knew

you were not like others, there was something special within you

I own something unexpected, which I never thought I'll find

I can't tell you how lucky I'm because you're mine

how beautifully you changed my life, you'll never know

you helped me spread my wings, you helped me to grow

you are my baby angel sent from above

you are just perfect and so is our love

every little thing you do for me

makes my dirty soul a little more clearer and free

from the every moment you arrive , the obstacles turn fine

I can say it proudly and loud, that you're mine

whether its day or night, you're always on my mind

your prayers surrounds me, the personal angel of mine

how you mended my broken heart, do you know?

I'll bleed out my heart to you, to show

your soothing voice, so divine and sweet

when you wake me up in the morning, its like a bird's tweet

without you inside, my heart will be so empty

I can see my life ahead with you so clearly

our bond is unbreakable, so strong

our dreams are new and young

I'll never let you down, will put you first

you're not just a part, but you're my heart

you're one in a million, impossible to find

you conquer my heart, my soul and mind

tonight I'll take you on a fantasy ride

I won't deny you, we'll go anywhere you like

Its your special day, just you & me tonight

let nothing come between us, no ego no pride

all I pray to god is a happy with you to live

except love & support, there's nothing more I can give

when we have a silly fight & I tell you to go away

you don't realize, I want you to stop me, I want you to stay

our bond is too deep to get over

with the end of a fight, we just get closer

when I'm crying like a kid, feeling so alone

I know you'll call me, I don't mind staring at my phone

I know you understand & respect my space

I want to apologize for all the long hours I made you wait

I remember talking & laughing like crazy in my staircase

just a gentle touch, my feelings you always trace

I can never forget the first day I saw you at school

we keep staring at each other between classes, not caring & breaking rules

because I know you're a keeper and you won't let me go ever

I believe we are nothing compared to forever...

caged

times passed by and relationships changed

all of a sudden the atmosphere became unknown and strange

the reality was just misted by you

whereas reality stood at its place, the way it should

I've lost myself, I've lost it all

there will be no one to catch me when I fall

I was afraid to loose you, so petrified

so dependent, thought I always needed you by my side

but when I opened my eyes a little more wide

I found something was so not right

I don't belong to anybody, not even you

when I leave, you may shed tears one or a few

the pain of my emptiness is now unbearable

with you I've became so dependent, so feeble

was this me? definately not

its not the girl for whom I've always fought

the roots of my emotions were burnt long ago

I won't get back to anyways, it's a final no

why do I have to think of you before I do something?

I never had to ask anyone for anything

I'm leaving, I can take care of myself

I'm sorry because I let go, I no more need your invisible help

you pushed me deeper in the darkness but you should have pulled me out

I can't keep it inside, I can't let my soul shout

I'm not your slave, you know you did me wrong

its ironic but your absence just made me strong

I'm a free bird, for flying is what I'm made

I realized that I'm just not to be caged