reflection

she was lost in her own world, so secret and deep

she was trying to find her lost self, when the world was fast asleep

she was born wrapped in the delicate petals of pink rose

she had a trillion reasons to suffer but what was hurting her the most?

the mirror was the only evidence which saw her growing from an infant to a young lady

life started teaching her such harsh lessons when she wasn't even ready

there was a time, everything was so innocent and divine

but now everybody grew up, was anybody bothered whether she was alive?

she was always humble & kind, cared selflessly for one and all

but she she got hurt over and again, through spring and fall

her soul was lost in this cruelty, she wanted to be like before

did she already learn all her lessons?or god has planned some more?

she was so badly trapped in the ornamentation of lies

stuck and lose in the maze of when,where,what and why

her beautiful eyes were too tired, she fell asleep as it started to rain

it was useless to think over th past anyways, that would just and on to her pain

Tomorrow will be worse or may be the same.

My funeral

I could see my corpse lying in the coffin

I noticed everyone silently talking

my so called loved ones were still in a haze

everyone seemed to be lost inside the emotion's maze

In one hand there was the blade & poison in the other

I chose this way as there was no way to go further

before saying the last goodbye, god gave me an amazing power

but I had no clue it has thunders to shower

I could read minds! all the way around

I could clearly hear the most negligible sounds

there stood my man, the only one I ever loved

being clueless how his thoughts were twisted & turned

I expected him to wonder the reason behind my demise

but sadly he was way too heartless and wise

this was the first shock to my lost soul

there were more waiting to pierce more holes

to console myself, I turned towards her

surprisingly her thoughts were pretty much blurred

she was not bothered that I wasn't there anymore

she was rather happy that for eternity I was pushed out of the door

I trusted her through all these years of my life

unknown of the fact that she was stabbing the betrayal's knife

my last hope, I turned towards the guy whom I assumed knew me the best

priceless times spent with him, felt like I stood up high on a crest

we always fought, almost everyday

I blindly believed he was here to stay

oh! how it shattered me when I realized it was the biggest lie

love & friendship were just two words, I got to know after I died

now it was my time to leave, with no reason to stop

I could feel myself going up above, right on the top

there stood a girl with a brook of tears in her brown eyes

I wanted to judge her the last, there was no risk in making another compromise

I was stunned when I got the courage to peep into he mind

she was true! she cared and her heart seemed melted and kind

all of a sudden it started to thunder and rain

it seemed as if even the heaven cried for my unbearable pain

as the last last tribute she greeted my lifeless body with a black rose

I could feel the affection wave between us, an invisible force

just when I began to know nothing but the truth

god didn't show me any kindness, any ruth

I had to go leaving the ones who cared and I never knew

Yes, i was loved & cared for but only by a unknown few

P.S. this is specially dedicated to my newly found angel Shayani :]

other than that the people mentioned in the lines above played very important roles in my life.

though I don't have them with me anymore, though I'm like this because of them.

I love and care you though I know I won't get anything in return. :] x