the last time

tonight its only you and me, for the very last time

remembering all the old memories, so divine

very little time is left, I've to disclose everything

I've long way travel, spreading my brand new wings

for the last time place your arms around my waist, I'm shaking

for the last time press your lips against mine and catch me, I'm falling

I'll keep looking at you with a lost stare

just to make you feel the warmth, to show how much I care

I'll never say those words again,for the fear of your deep fright

it is the last time until the arrival of this blissful night

your fingers traced around my pale face, pushing hair away

I was unprepared & eager to know what you've to say

you said your way was dirty and battered

you were littered with dreams, broken and tattered

you promised to be always there

ignoring the distance, no matter how far or near

he held me close and I wondered what he'll do

he kissed me for the last time and said "I love you"

my eyes brimmed tears of blood, it was too late

my corpse was ready to get laid in the grave

this was the last good bye

because that night I died

let the blade take away the pain

all her life she burnt in death fire

there's nothing left on this land she admire

her wounds are so deep, they won't ever heal

because they are too deep and too real

let the blade take away the pain

I couldn't help her, I just watched her burn

Time tried to teach her lessons, but she wasn't ready to learn

She couldn't get back, she went too far

Nobody could help her, she fought her own internal war

let the blade take away the pain

Her heart has turned black from hectic red

She tried to control and showers of bloody tears she didn't shed

seeing her stillness, even the flames froze

For her, the sun never rose

let the blade take away the pain

storms may have hit her but she was strong

deep inside she knew she was never wrong

I held her pale hand and asked what I can do to reduce her sorrow

she replied its my life that she would like to borrow

let the blade take away the pain

there was a new her, born from her own ash

there was no existence of the heart that once someone smashed

But now now she was broken without a reason

because all this time I forgot it was the death season

let the blade take away the pain

changes

still wondering how unexpectedly you came to my life

when my most trusted ones had stabbed me with me betrayal's knife

I was groaning and moaning inside, every day and night

expecting someone to hug me spreading my arms wide

little things that you do makes me feel like I'm on cloud nine

everything is so beautifully different, now I'm perfectly fine

it brings a smile on my face whenever I think about the beginning of our love

undoubtedly it can be compared to the purity of a white dove

do you remember red roses you gave me?

they are safely preserved in my diary

the first you held my hand

leaning on you, we walked for hours on sand

as days passes by our love becomes deeper and true

because I know whatever mess I may be in, you will be there to help me through

everybody is not the same, I've learnt with you

I'm satisfied with my loved ones, which are left very few

I wanted to fly but i didn't have wings

but you came along and you changed everything

from my life and me you erased the word called "lie"

I promise to love you until the moment I die

the magic of rain

It's raining since the morning, everything is blurry

but you asked me not to worry

I try to be calm uttering some incantation

hoping it may lessen my old suffocation

these tiny magical droplets brings a new hope

to my endless sorrows, it works as a rope

I have been waiting you for so long

and have written numerous sad songs

my frozen tears are normal again

I am flushed with confidence, it can't be tamed

it's so cold, I'm quivering now

I have so much to you, I won't you say a single vow

somehow I will try to hide the slits on my wrist

years back these were the hands you kissed

I start playing my guitar to distract myself

within myself I wonder will this help?

I am looking out with a lost stare

won't you ever understand how much I care?

why do you want me to repeat it all when you never hear?

I already lost you, I fear

It's night now, I am subdued and sleep- deprived

but I will be waiting for you, spreading my arms wide.

I hate you

I hate you because you let me go

I hate you because you let me do anything even when you knew its wrong

I hate you because you don't tell me when you're hurt

I hate you because you never understood why I fight with you

I hate you because you hid your tears

I hate you because you never let me feel that you're scared

I hate you because you never showed me your pain

I hate you because you never hugged me drenched in rain

I hate you because you always faked a smile

I hate you because you were crying inside all this while

I hate you because you always let me feel I am right

I hate you because you never said I'm always on your mind

I hate you because for me you never cared about time

I hate you because you were so loyally mine

I hate you because you never understood I love you so

and at-last I hate you the most because

you never admitted you love me more.....!

absent love

why did you have to change?
is this a form of revenge?
it feels so strange.
only last night everything was fine.
i was waiting for the sun to shine
but it never shone for me again
you were already gone
without even saying the last goodbye
and i kept wondering why
why are good times so short lived?
all i have is your memories and endless questions
why you crushed me if you have ever loved me?
i will keep waiting till my last breath
but will you come after forever?
forever ends so soon
but we will be together for million monsoon.

without you

You know how vacuous I feel without you in me?

on my face the superficial smile you see.

how could you stab that cold knife from behind?

the stupid mistakes I made, I can't rewind

I regret loving a guy with such a petite heart

the awaited good times is about to start

is this all because of the endless feuds?

the crack in our bond can't be sewed

baby you are indispensable for me

oh! how i miss it when the way you used to say "we"

I know how adamant you are

that,s why the distance increased & now we're far

but you looked totally unperturbed

when i was totally crushed and sad

what makes you think consoling will work?

when you know your absence hurts me like a sharp fork

how spontaneously you acted around

you forgot our intimacy, I can't hear a single sound

the past started sprouting in me

how could you do this to me?

You know how vacuous I feel without you in me?

on my face the superficial smile you see.

thorns of the night

lost deep in the darkness of lie

you're not real neither am I

I'm not a prophet bot I can see the hidden truths

Some secrets will be unknown they the should

the green valleys, the mysterious hollow

it may seem fascinating to you but for me it shallow

For you the twilight sky is a scary view

but I can see the dark sky in vibrant hue

Its hard for you to understand me

do you really believe everything the way you see?

my dreams has the colour of hectic red

and the tears of blood i won't shed

No, i don't see the your way

there are certain things which i won't say

the chariot of death took away my light

left with teary eyes and a blurry sight

the pain that I hide in my black heart

I'm finding the end, i am finding the start

all the emotions and feeling fake

they are all as as a frozen lake

lost deep in the darkness lie

you're not real neither am I....

world beyond him

time has changed

yes, time has changed me.

time and tide waits for none.

i still do believe that he was the one.

there is a world beyond him.

i never though we will end this way.

bad times has passed, now i see a bright ray.

now i am free from all the hesitations.

there is no more the feeling of the painful suffocation.

there is a world beyond him.

i know the grief, i know the pain.

i have faced wind, i have felt the rain.

but i still stand tall.

life may beat me, i will not fall.

there is a world beyond him.

each storm & weather increases my strength.

& beneath this skin, my soul's to thank.

now i know what to do.

i count on myself to make it through.

there is a world beyond him.

the shades of love

you came like breeze
you left like a storm
from the dark reds & rainbow
the colors left now are dark & hollow
i remember the kisses & holding hand

everything washed away like a name in the sand
the memories which will be there forever
the time spent together which can't be forgotten ever
the blood red pretty roses
and the deep love and affection it poses
the big boxes of dark chocolate
how can you just get over it mate?
i can't be a stone
all you left me with is pain & reasons to moan
the first touch of the divine rain
we have to move on now or then
you came like a breeze
you left like a storm
..................................

fake a smile

you see me & think I'm happy right?
little do you know that i cry every day & every night
you left at a point of no return
i know i am going in a wrong direction turn by turn
dieing to hear your voice calling my name
just when i realized it won't ever be the same
all the dirty games you played & the fake promises you made
i can't see any ray of hope only darkness & sorrow remains
why'd you have to leave?
i can't take the pain of seeing no more you and me
you were such a great guy three months later
i am still in grief
i just want you to be here with me
it's 1 am but i am still wide awake
because i am still lost in shock
show me a girl who stands up nice and tall
when the world is collapsed around me
i can't lean against a wall
i would always wear a smile & i can't even break
even though my heart is broken & my smile is really fake.

soumyasree

the person who knows me better than me
the name os this special person is soumyasree
the one who showed life's new dimension
she taught me how to deal with sadness and tension
the one who cahnged my negative view
now my world is all cheerful and new
friendship is about trust,love and affection
how beautifully you can love one's imperfection
i love you for what you are
no matters you are that far
o promise to be there to wipe off your tears
i will be always there helping to drive away your fears
you make my life so much better
nobody can replace you now or later



a short poem for my life :) 'soumyasree' happy 16th birth day baby!
i love you

teenache

what does life consists of?

friends,family and love may be

from the very first moment the journey starts

learning to walk holding the finger of your dad

getting fed and loved by your mom

it were all those carefree times once we all have had

but as we grow up we start acting mad

till we reach the age called "teenage"

life becomes an ache

this is the time when we realize

growing up is not all that fun

broken pencils are better than a broken heart

the pressure from school,friends & the special one

becomes heavy on us as a weight of a ton!

realization and knowing yourself better

enjoy n learn, you won't suffer later

isn't it wonderful how god planned the whole thing?

don't let yourself sink!

think about it, deeper and deeper

it's empty isn't it?

yes life can't be perfect, no matter how hard you try

so why do we slit our wrists and cry?

useless! just move on, see the brighter side

try to make your imperfect life better with all your might

the bridge

our life is like a bridge
and now i am somewhere in the middle
somehow i lost the control over my saddle
when the journey started
it went on like a smooth cake walk for years
now i have started realizing the roughness of the same
is it too late to fix it?
i surely need the answer soon
i can't go back to you and loose myself
even though i admit i need your help
i can see a blurred image of my destination
yet your memories creates some unexpected hesitation
its just the time when i started feeling the suffocation
love and death does not come with a notification
i am hanging in the middle of you and my dreams
life is not always the way it seems
i chose to follow my dream and move ahead
life gives you a very few opportunities
you have to adjust yourself with the flow
iknow i left you feel so very low
the life will go on very smooth and slow
i can't just accept to let go
but i don't have any choice and you started seeing me as your foe
seeing the sunlight and brimming river next morning
i realized you were gone
but you will be there forever in my heart
it's love when all you want is that person to be happy
even if you're not a part of the happiness
i have learnt to let go
this invisible bridge taught me so much about what so clearly visible